Darkness and Light

Oh...darkness, my old friend 

It’s nice to see you here again 

This time I cannot run away 

So tell me all you have to say 

 

Show me! what I didn’t want to see

I shall learn to accept this reality 

I have been crafting it all these years 

It’s time to study my masterpiece 

 

The undertones are shining bright

My grief, you glow delightfully tonight 

I kiss all my what-ifs

Then dance with never-happenings 

 

I wish I knew it all better before 

So that my heart wouldn’t be so sore 

My poison leaks through the endless tears 

I know...now it’s time to be fierce!

 

I feel the warmth of the grace inside 

Finally, I saw my crying pain that night 

She was just a child...helpless and scared 

Someone who needed my love and care 

 

Please, forgive it took me so long

I hope, my darkness, now we will get along 

I fell in love with your terrifying mystery 

So far, that is my greatest victory!

 

Your gift of solitude has given me freedom 

There I’ve grown my own garden of Eden 

I bathe in gratitude everyday 

And hope to hear, what my soul wants to say

 

I found a place for you in my life

You are where you have to be - next to the light

I promise no longer to run away 

Please, keep guiding me on my way! 

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Irina Tova

2020